MIGHTY.......that was the word for the day as I lay in bed pondering what that actually means.

I try to ask Him every morning.....
                                                      just for ONE simple word....
Those simply words change my life.......

When I think of mighty I think of the Mighty Ducks movie...  one of my favorites!  I think Papa likes that I think of that because that team goes through everything together, they learn to fight and win as a team.  They come from ALL very different walks of life but they come together and learn how to win as a team.  It is such a great fun movie.

Papa said... his mighty hand has redeemed me.  Wow, he must have some amazingly powerful and loving hands!

My new life in Portlandia......


Has been such a growing fun adventure and I can't wait for whats next....

So far I have been going to school, riding my bike every where and meeting amazing people!!!!  That's one thing I truely treasure about Portlandia- the people!  They are from near and far and not afraid to share their story usually.

One of my dear friend's I have met here, while going to school, is such an AMAZING person.  She inspires me in so many ways- to be free to be myself and encourages me jump out!  Her name is Valerie and we have gotten to know each other better through walking during class on our "lunch" breaks everyday.  She shares about her day and I share about mine.  The other day while  walking, Valerie shared with me this volunteering she does with trauma intervention every month.  I couldn't believe it, I was so touched by her genuine care for the hurting and love for people.  She shared about all the different traumas she has helped with, which amazed me so much.  She had no special alterier motives but just to help people.  
Before I moved back to Portland I was asking Papa for friends that would show me how to love and care, and I'm so thankful He has put her in my life.  She inspires me to love purely.  There's so many other stories I could share but that's just one of the many He continues to be faithful in my life!       

I have a dream to be lover.....  This week it has been constantly on my mind and heart to love so deeply that it woo's people to the lover of their souls.  I am learning and growing in this thought of loving deeply.  Sometimes my heart hurts soooo much for having an agenda with love.  There are so many things rushing though my mind I just have to get them out.  Well, this week I did a presentation on people who have down syndrome.  I don't have very much experience with them but one of the most beautiful things about them is they know how to love in such a powerful and free way.  I admire and want to be like them so much.   Sometimes I'm even afraid of what people will do if I love.
          To be a lover!!!! It's one of the most beautiful things.... we were created for!
I have been living with my parent for about 5 months now and it has been a lot of adjusting, crying, laughing, exploding, communicating, learning, and learning how to love.  I deffinetly don't have it down yet but have been growing so much.  For some reason this week something clicked inside of me with loving my parents and it's been the most freeing and amazing thing ever.  I love them with all my heart and I'm completely "in" with loving deeply.  It has definetly been a process but this week I have been undone by this beauty freely loving where someone is at in this journey.  The lover of my soul has loved me so deeply that sometimes I feel so undeserving of this deep love.  My lover also showed me that I can love people to love.  Not with any intentions or hiden agendas but just pure love.  Sometimes the most freeing thing  to do is love.  I have to confess that as a christian I have loved people out of duty, sacrifice, religion, rules, law, to make me look good and the list can go on and on.....and this makes me feel so sick and ugly inside.  Please forgive me I want to learn to love and see you for how amazing you are and to love you genuinely.

thankful

Thankfulness is one of the best medicines.......

Confession:  I haven't been a very thankful person.....
                                                 I've always thought I want what that person has or wishing.

Soooooo today I chose thankfulness:  I have to admit I didn't know where to start but I was on a run so I chose to be thankful for my legs!  Everyday theres so much.  Thank you papa for what you have given me!

SUMMER is HERE!!!!

What have I been pondering?

and I have felt the heat..... alot!!!

I'm excited for the fun in the sun!!!

Pondering the thought and reality of being FREE and ME and Confident of that:)

Papa continues to show me that He wants me to live and believe in His love all the TIME!  To be undone in His LOVE.....

WOW its that simply!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's so beautiful:)

1st SUMMER in REDDING CA!!!!!

I think it's going to be hot and adventurous!!!!!

So far this summer has been amazing.........

          Living with amazing roomates, making smoothies, going on late night run's, and the best for last falling in LOVE!!!

I have always dreamed of having a "summer Love" and so I've been asking for that dream to come true!!!!

By now most of you are thinking please tell us who this lover is.....

                                                     It's the only lover who can only satisfy my every need and calls me deeper each day!

                                        I am truly undone and moved by His unfailing love!  Even though I dream of getting married someday and falling in love but I have never been so amazed at how His heart moves us to His love and we become alive.......

    Everyday I'm asking for the closeness and intimacy that He love's to give........WOW how beautiful!!!!

Him showing His heart to me and me revealing my secrets to Him makes us close together.

I love to ask questions.....and He love's my questions  and loves to answer my questions!!!!

BEing alive......

                           One of the AMAZING things His been showing me is LOVE at my work.  I'm a caregiver at an alzeimers  facility and so often I have felt my job is not important and insignificant and not good enough BUT the voice of truth tells me He VALUES AND CARES AND LOVES this "unseen and secret" care that we do......

       Today He showed me how He values me and all the other caregivers by  one of the family member son's coming around and giving us each these LOVING hugs!  WOW, I felt sooooo valued!  Even though I didn't know this son I saw in his eyes how much he was thankful for the care we had done for His mom!  It was sooooo special to me because I never new how my everyday care for these people REALLY effects and impacts the WHOLE  family, soooo beautiful!

LOVE's......

To be or not to be.......

YOUR SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
......that is a question I am faced with too often???

BUT... 
                       if your not your BEAUTIFUL self who is going to REALLY know you!  You are worth accepting and embracing and YOU are worth LOVING!

The world is missing out on YOU if your not yourself...Wow!  Let me be free!!!

IT's like a gift of love when your yourself!!! wohoo